A Personal Journey

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90 days ago I set a goal for myself, to do 90 days of Pilates in a row. No excuses, no matter how hungover I was, I was going to go in the hopes of reshaping and finding something that worked for me. Little did I know what I was in for. PicMonkey Collage

Most people don’t know or at least don’t believe that in high school I was completely shy. Painfully shy. I also suffered from severe social anxiety. During my senior year of high school I gain 40+ lbs in three or four months due to medication they put me on to combat some of the social anxiety. From then on, as if I wasn’t dealing with enough as an insecure teen, I now had a weight issue. As soon as I was taken off the medication, I lost all the weight but I was a “skinny fat person”. I had a whole family of people who loved to workout except me. I tried to love it but never found it enjoyable. I could barely walk up a flight of stairs yet I was a size 2. I started working out a bit in Miami but fell off very quickly when I lost my workout partner and once I came to Chicago, there was nothing I enjoyed more than food!Revae_7.28_03

During the summer of 2012, the guy I was seeing and eventually stopped seeing made a really offensive comment, I heard through the grapevine, that part of the reason he ended things was because I didn’t workout and take care of myself. “Screw him!”, I thought, so the next summer I signed up for my first triathlon with Team in Training. I completed it but I gained weight instead of loosing it during the process and the whole time something just felt off. I made a goal to do a few more triathlons summer of 2014. I got a road bike. I was ready.

PicMonkey Collage1I turned 30 in February of this year and didn’t have a great birthday but a new decade felt like a new start. I finally went to the food allergist and found out I was allergic to corn, dairy, nuts, tree fruit, and coconut. The dots started to connect, every workout I did for my triathlon I ate a banana with peanut butter and coconut water. It was potassium and protein, how can that be bad? I ate a banana with peanut butter the morning of my race. I remember finishing my run and crossing the finish line my stomach so uncomfortable but no reasonable explanation. Revae_7.28_05

Once I took all of those things out of my diet, things started to change. I just felt so much better and eating didn’t make me sick. I decided to start my tri training but wanted to also work on establishing my core. My sister manages two Pilates studios in Indianapolis suggested I come try a class the next time I was home. I did it kind of dragging my feet because it’s not exactly cheap but what could it hurt? I took one class and was hooked. I came back to Chicago and found Flex Pilates, the first class just felt like home.

PicMonkey Collage2I took a class or two and decided to put the triathlons by the wayside until I finished 90 days straight. It was challenging but yet I could move about my day after class and not feel like I wasn’t going to be able to walk the next day. I saw a change in my figure, a development of muscles I never thought I had and I felt just lighter in general but it also gave me piece of mind. It gave me structure to my day and a new community of friends. I no longer feel like a skinny girl in a fat girls body because I was just avoiding food or eating less. Its made me feel ok with my body and knowing that I did it. Me. I chose to commit to this every day make a change within myself. Revae_7.28_06

I cannot say enough for the women I’ve met at Flex, the changes I’ve seen, and how much better I feel. I have shoulders and abs and a butt that’s perky. It’s just the beginning but it’s a pretty good start!Revae_7.28_11

Everyone comes into their own, in the own time but at 30 to be in the best place I’ve ever been in, to feel happier and healthier, and I realize that it’s all just a journey. It’s all your choice, do with it as you see fit. It’s amazing what 90 days will do!

Most sincerely,


Photo credit {Heather Talbert}


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